Why am I in counseling? May 15, 2009
Posted by fmmh in : Ramblings , trackbackIf I talk more then I end counseling earlier. Yeah! However, it’s difficult for me to talk. I become embarrassed very easily. I don’t want to cry.
I remember a time I cried that it hurt. In the arms of the man I loved, my heart whispered goodbye as we made love. In my tears and hugs, my soul moaned how much I didn’t want to lose him. When he asked why I was leaving a couple days early, I cried even more. He had never seen me cry before. It was monumental.
I cried like that in one other person’s arms. I remember her trying to escape that awkward moment as soon as possible and kindly wipe the snot and tears off her shirt without offending me. But she taught me not let it all go. I learned tears had to be moderated.
I’m not in counseling for a snot and tear feast. I’ve been going to counseling since 2003 and still I refrain from crying because I don’t know how to moderate tears.
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